January 2011
Every Girl Deserves One
my family and i used to be really close to this other family. the daughter and i were in an organization together so our parents became close. over the past few years weve drifted apart though, just got busy i supposed?
the real reason.. as it turns out, the father (who i used to know, hed seemed a decent loving father), woke up one morning and decided he was tired of being a daddy, so he left...
I feel like..
no matter how much effort i put into being a better person, i still come out shitty
i am the worlds biggest hypocrite
i notice the flaws around me in other people, because i have/had them in me
WDE Award
i got a bad grade on my report card
and my mom cried, and said she was embarassed for me and so dissapointed and ashamed
and i went upstairs and smashed my head into the wall
the whole education system is flawed, but she still cries like i commited a sin, i am entirely against it, but i feel guilty still
all of her friends get to brag about their kids going to harvard, in all honors, straight...
Those beautiful people
Reading Emerson
the kind who think outside the box
unbounded aesthetics
tell them theyre ugly or wrong, theyre beautiful people and their beings are the most honest, true, passionate wholes to walk this earth
they express and inspire a catharsis of truth
use their minds but move with their hearts
the souls of artists
tell me im mistaken, but they are my aspiration
Sometimes i wonder
why cant i just accept things like normal people do? why cant i be normal? why does my mind have to try and separate black and white in a world of grey? if its grey, its grey. not black. not white. grey. i have to understand it all or understand nothing. theres never sorta or kinda philisophically. my world is constantly disrupted with new theories hazed over with a tint of grey. franctically...
Re: Stacks- Bon Iver
anyone who knows me knows music is my life in the most non- cliche sort of sense
and as an aspect of my center its safe to say i reallyyy strive to keep an open mind in trying all different kinds
this was recommended to me by a friend of mine
to be honest, i never thought i would find myself getting lost in a piece like this
but i did
andoutcamethewolves:
She Makes Dirty Words Sound...
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“Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything. Nothing’s going to disappear...”
– (via itookadeepbreath, bubbleteas)
i am so tired of
labels.
and how everyone is constantly fitting them
because when were told were something enuf
it starts to become a part of us
INDIVIDUALITY PORFAVOR
Im afraid
i will be depressed forever
i cant let it define me
i reallt want to die one day knowing i lived or at least tried
i dont really want much, but if i cud have anything under the sun, id beg god to give me a will
and to anyone, dont take that drive for granted. it can take you anywhere
im trying my best
I have so many thoughts
and i dont know what to do with them
i cant remember all of them or keep track long enuf to write them down
so they sit in the back of my mind
and rot
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